Today I was kind of upset about my weight when I went on the scale for the first time in a long, long time. It made me feel like making a community to help support people who need a little help having a healthy lifestyle. It is also a place where you can make friends, share recipes, and just have a good discussion. And it is a great place to keep track of your own lifestyle. I thought everyone might want to know about it. So if you want to join you can here : fitjournal4u. I hope to see some of you join, and I also hope more people post on here, it's been quiet lately.
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Matters Concerning Your Home (The Moon Rune)
Wunjo denotes joy and shared bliss. It may also represent a job well done and the satisfaction one feels from completing such a task. Wunjo brings good fortune and harmony.
Matters Concerning Business, Skills and Integrity (The Rune of Mercury)
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Matters Concerning Love (The Rune of Venus)
Othala represents a solid, immovable home, prosperity and safety. Good fortune based on your heritage and character is yours to enjoy.
Matters Concerning Hostility, Opposition and Aggression (The Rune of Mars)
The Sun Rune, denotes power and strength. That which you want may be attained. Sowilo also denotes mental clarity and added warmth to your relationships.
Matters of Finance, Acquisition and Wealth (The Rune of Jupiter)
Dagaz represents the fresh light of a new day. You are close to making a breakthrough. You have the will to change whatever you deem necessary. You may see the world with absolute clarity at this time.
Matters of the Intellect (The Rune of Saturn)
Gebo represents the coming of gifts and favors. While each are usually positive events, they often carry obligations with them. Gebo often represents strong bonds such as deep friendships and marriage.
Ansuz represents mankind's spiritual connection to God and the universe. It is often referred to as the "God Rune." This Rune embodies reason, truth and justice. It denotes the coming of knowledge and true counsel from a higher authority.
I don't even know how to start off this entry. Words always flow to me, like a river. Its a gift, my gift.
Theese past couple of days have been a trial by fire. But the hard part is I am only a spectator, watching as some one I once loved is being torn to pieces. Frozen, no longer in a postion to help them. Or even talk to them.
I have recently learned that my ex is using coke.... For thoose who don't keep up with my journal here is a little background.
My ex and I were together for three happy years. We lived together for a little over two years. We were happy and in love. We had our agruements. I won't sit here and tell you we lived a fairytell life. We didn't. It was hard work. From age 16 - 18 I worked hard and long, just like him, to make our life work. But we were happy. Then within the last six months everything changed. He changed. He devolped a nasty temper turned towards me for no reason at all. He would go out with his friends and not come home for a few days. He would break promises and lie to me all the time. Not even creative lies, but lies he knew I would find out. He would scream at me, call me a whore, slut and a cunt. For no reason.... I am not living in a delisional world. I know I have said harsh things to him when we were fighting but this came out of no where. It was six months of hell. I loved who he was, but I hated who he became. During theese six months I grew into a person that I like more and more everyday. It forced me to be my own person... (In long realtionships sometimes you lose yourself and become part of a whole, instead of two seperate people). I knew I could make life work for myself. I was thinking about leaving him and devolping this new me. But it made me feel guilty. I thought that he was going through something and he would come to me when it was time. Most people ask me why I stayed and the answer is simple. We had a good, long realtionship together. I didn't want to walk away from him when I thoguht he needed me. But none of that matters. One day he sent me a text message that it was over.
I didn't cry. I didn't swear about him. I didn't scream, curse him, or break everything he owed. Do you want to know what I did?
It was over. I was so relieved and happy. I laughed and smiled as I packed up my things and broguht it to my parents. Every night that week me and my friends threw a party and just celerbrated life. Almost two months later I am still smiling.
Now I find out he is using coke. That he has been. Then for the first time I cried. I don't have any harsh feelings towards him. I did love him, I want us to be happy. Even if we wern't happy together. I don't know what to think.... I don't want him to waste his life. He has blown over $3,000 since we broke up on coke. It hurts me to think that this is what changes him. That when I was feeling sorry for myself he was out doing this. Out doing this with money I worked 60+ hours a week to get. It hurts I never noticed. It just hurts....
He completley cut off all ties to me. We don't even talk.
I kust don't know what to think and to feel.
What should I do? What do you think? </3 I am just heartbroken that I never knew and that I have been out having fun through all of this.
I like reading, writing, listening to music, and hanging out with my boyfriend.
3. What is your biggest challenge?
Right now it is dealing with friends that abandoned you. It is dealing with the fact that I am never good enough for anyone, and I just have to live my own life. It is trying to make it through to college, to my new start.
4. What, if any, is the biggest hurdle in your way?
The biggest 'hurdle' in the way right now is my parents. The fighting, the lies. I can't stand this household anymore, and I need to get out. It's terrible.
Recently a lot of people have been asking me how to go about getting a better paying or just plain better job.
Let me start off by saying in today’s economy it is not easy to find a job! My own recent job search took over a month. Don't quit your current job if at all possible, until you find a better job. If that is not possible and you must quit ASAP you have to find a quick (temporary) source of income.
For me I turned to good old fashion Babysitting. Check into your states regulations on the number of kids you can watch before you need a license. In CT you can have up to four children in the same time span before you need a license. Babysitting is quick and often fun money. This can keep you afloat. I was making $900 a month with two kids. (I was only working five days a week, 4 hours a day). JUST REMEBER As tempting as it can be unless you do decide to get a license babysitting is only a temporary solution. People don't always pay on time or as much as promised. (They believe the electric bill is more important. They might have a point but when its your only source for money...) Its a seasonal job, between school and summer vacation. I can't really think of another quick source of income that doesn’t require money to get into but I will look into it.
Here’s What You Should Do.
Open a hotmail account used only for your job search. Hotmail accounts are free and easy to use. >> www.hotmail.com <<
Next write your Resume. It does not matter how much or how little experience you have, resume should be used since your first application! Resumes make your life easier, look professional, and make the process speed up. If you need help writing a resume here is an excellent template. >> http://www.myresumeonline.org/resume-templates/ <<. All resume can be worded to cover for all the jobs you are applying for. However you should write individual cover letter per application. This website gives a good overview on what a cover letter is and how to write it >> http://www.myresumeonline.org/cover-letters/ <<.
Join >> www.monster.com << and >> www.careerbuilder.com <<. I personally prefer Monster because they do offer a good deal of job aides and have a wonderful "quick apply" feature. The quick apply feature allows you to upload your resume onto Monster for employers to read to contact you, and if you see a job you want to apply for you just hit the "quick apply" button and Monster automatically sends your resume.
There is a big misconception that these website or only for high end jobs. THATS NOT TRUE. These website have jobs for any experience level, work-wise and education-wise.
Another good website to turn to is >> http://hotjobs.yahoo.com/ << however I didn't send my resume to them. I used it as a list of businesses to go apply to. But they have a good list of jobs, even in my town. (Which says a lot our population is about 6,000 not much considering this website does the whole US).
Our local community college offers programs (most the state will pay for if you apply) that help you establish careers if time is own your side. Most local colleges offer programs like theese. Here is our website on it >> http://www.qvctc.commnet.edu/cpl/careerseekers.html << to give you a better understanding of what I mean.
Once that is all set and done, go to the gas tank. Cry as you fill her up. Then drive around and give out resumes to every business you see, even if there isn't a help wanted poster sign up. Bring a friend, enjoy the company.
Check out your local job agencies. They take a cut of your pay until you get hired through the company, but they have access to jobs most people don't. There jobs also pay very well.
Don't take the first job offered; wait for a good, better paying one.
I love to read, write, entertain my freinds, and just have a good time.
3. What is your biggest challenge?
My biggest challenge is living with my parents after three years of living in my own apartment. You see, my ex (then boyfriend) and I shared the apartment and one day he sent be a TEXTMESSAGE saying that it was over and I had to get out. What an asshole.
4. What, if any, is the biggest hurdle in your way?
Both my parents are bi-polar, and my mother is teminally ill. Its like walking on eggshells here all the time.
5. What do you hope to get from this community?
Just people to talk to, more people to entertain <3, and people to bitch to.
This is a community to come together and share your true intentions To Find A Friend To Vent. To Love. To Share. To Help One Another. This is Your new Sounding Board. A Place To Turn To When Others Fail You.
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